heart x.x

so hungry tonight  the night couple more cuts to get that numb feeling 

My urges to kill myself are going through the roof today. It’s just killing me. Everything is. I need to end my life. I don’t deserve to be living. I don’t want to be living. I have no fucking reason to live anymore. Nobody wants me. They just use me and that’s how it always will be. They always find someone else. Someone better. I’m done.

(Source: hopelessandlonely)

i am almost there i feel it just a little more so hungry and weak my cuts are still open just a couple more days something is bound to happen 

four day no eating still bleeding i have no idea how im still living but fuck it im not worth the time i have 

no food straight up cutting all day ia m slowly dying but i never felt so happy

I feel dizzy, weak, tired and once my chest was hurting, but maybe I had a cold. It started off losing weight slow but I 

All the things she said
Running through my headI’m in serious shit, I feel totally lost

If I’m asking for help it’s only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?I keep asking myself, wondering how

I keep closing my eyes but I can’t block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it’s just you and me
Nobody else so we can be freeAnd I’m all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed

They say it’s my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don’t worry me
‘Cause I’m feeling for her what she’s feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it’s driving me mad, going out of my head

I can feel that you mesmerize my heart
I feel so free, I’m alive, I’m breaking out
I won’t give in ‘cause I’m proud of all my scars